Sunday, February 28, 2010
They are probably going as far as to question my abilities as a parent. Difficult to believe but truth. It is very surreal. I need outstanding lawyer. Yesterday.
Friday, February 26, 2010
We went today to pickup chicken skins from the farm. It was snowing. We went to look at emu birds. Sebastian was happy and exited.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
SSAH Provincial Coalition
I am really tempted to share the news letter with you, because it is very indicative of how "Special" the special needs people are for Ontario Government.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Reading the health records brought a wave of memories and emotions that are not easy. I had a lot of flashbacks - I went through very difficult times. Years of extreme stress. It changed me. May be for the better, but I would not wish that for anybody. Except may be of very few I have met on my path ... God forgive me!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Sebastian yesterday looked me straight of the eye and then gave me a big smile more than couple of times. That was new. Today he does not do that. Today in the morning he he put my slipers on and marched back and forth. But he is in a good mood, and watching new Blue's Clue's tapes Jannell dropped off this morning. I am cooking big pot of chicken necks, and trying to do some cleaning - our house needs very badly . And yeah, this is the guilt I deal with a lot. He should not spend hours of watching videos, but he does. From time to time he comes to the kitchen, Or I come to his room, we exchange hugs, sing a song , flip through the book, and he runs back to his room asking for turning the TV on. Not good.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Yesterday we went on the farm ride, and brought home forty pounds of organic chicken bones, one frozen free range chicken, big jar of goat milk for kefir and yogurt, and bag full of grass fed beef. We are carnivores. No surviving on rice and peas for us.
Kefir grains I hope are happy now sitting in a jar of goat milk in my oven with light turned on for little heat. Beside it there is jar of goat milk that hopes to become a yoghurt, and beside them a pot containing happy kombucha mother and some sweat tea. Three different fermenting bacteria cultures.
Year ago I was NOT brewing anything in my owen.
A year ago I was not giving much thought to the fact that
SATURATED FAT IS GOOD FOR YOU!
Do you believe it? I will not hold it against you if you do not ;-)
I ordered twenty pounds of organic chicken skins to cook them off for chicken fat. I wander how it all goes. Will I be able to cook off fat from them? Will it be edible? Will it smell? Till now I was cooking in organic coconut oil from iherb. And a lot of ghee made from not organic butter. I am rather reluctant organic enthusiast, but I think that on GAPS diet we eat a lot of meat and animal fat. As everybody knows if the body does not know what to do with the ingested strange substance like medication, pesticide, or heavy metal it puts it away and stores it in fat cells. So if animal eats feed with traces of pesticides on it the concentration of pesticides in its body is hundreds times higher than it was in the food animal ate. Bodies of autistic kids do not excrete heavy metals and toxins well. And that is why it is important to eat organic meat and especially organic animal fat. Therefore I am on the search of inexpensive source of it. Lots of inexpensive organic lard is something I am after. Organic butter or even better ghee at wholesale prices would be a fantastic find.
I just tried a box of organic vegetables from Plan B, and I am going to order more - it is like somebody doing shopping for you - a bit of the adventure.
Year ago I was doing NONE of this things.
Word is changing. I believe for the better.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
New personHuman Rts - Law SocietyReferralI have 6 yr old dysfunctional - developmental delayed - complained to Human Rts. in Dec 09 - Niagara Artistic discriminatedWaited 2 yrs for therapy - 6 months if not enough progress in therapy - he was in therapy for 18 m then they say he was out of the program - he made 89 % progress - he was denied further therapy in Nov 2008 - mom appealed the decision - b/e he is now 6 he goes to school - he does not get therapy in the schoolAppealed to McMaster University Children's Hospital Autism Spectrum Disorder Service working the Ham-Niagara Regional Autism Intervention Program. - she was refused to know who the independent reviewer was except the reviewer worked for the hospital .Denied the therapy in Nov 2008 - Sept 09 he was transferred to school.Maria works part time in a hotel as banquet waitress - raising son SEBASTIAN on her own. Dad is unknown - yearly salary $ 17,000
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
So here in recent one from Victoria.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Our neighbor and dearest babysitter just dropped in with little teddy bear and more chocolates! Good times :-)
Friday, February 12, 2010
part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5 | part 6
We started the diet last June. This winter we did not have much of the running nose or colds. My patience and stamina is stronger. Even my short term memory is improving. Sebastian is amazing, and everybody tells me that they see the difference in him. His stool looks almost normal. He did not have a major tantrum at home this month. So I recommend it to everybody to try...
And when you do that you will need this book;
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
I think a lot lately. Thoughts roll through my head and sweep through the ages and continents but they do not crystalize in crisp words organized in neat sentences. They just leave me a feeling, and I have to admit I am surprised how heavy and suffocating that emotion is.
Injustice. Discrimination. Prejudice. I never dreamed I will be looking straight in the ugly faces of those monsters. In one of the most developed countries of the world. In the 21 century. But here they are. Uttered and spelled not by ignorant and rough out by educated, and mild mannered. I never dreamed that I will have to fight for the life, for the chance, for the dignity of the most vulnerable.
I do not like confrontation. My first instinct is to flee, and that is how my ancestors probably survived. But here I am, not just a little bewildered. I do not believe I have much choice or much influence over what I can do or what is happening around us. I feel like I we a part of bigger reality I have very little control of.
Do I expect justice in just because I live is the country that thinks of itself a civilized democratic and developed one? Not anymore. I have seen too much. But I am sure I have no choice but to fight. And does not matter if we loose or win. It is a right thing to do.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Friday, February 5, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
I had another transition school meeting today. Sebastian is lucky to meet such friendly and positive environment at St Brigid's School. They have great team of from principal through to lunch lady and cleaning crew. Each meeting in catholic school starts with a prayer and I like that very much. It sets an intension of doing the best possible, and focuses everybody on the fact that we are part of something bigger than ourselves. Nonbelievers can benefit just because attitudes are contagious among us neurologically wired for social existence members of human kind.
Sebastian enjoys everything from a bus ride to classroom filled up with many very entertaining toys. Demands on him are much lower that in intense therapy, and he is very happy play, listen to the music, visit a classroom full of his peers , and roam around in the gym. It makes me feel god knowing that he is safe and happy there, and yet I do know that he needs intensive treatment to go as far as he can.
Sebastian had a bit of stinky dirrahea in his pants after he came from school. I do not know why, because to my knowing he did not eat anything unusual. He was stiming like mad all evening, and now it is already past one in the morning and he is still roaming around.That is one of this times when brain- gut connection is showing itself again.