Waa waa

Yesterday Sebastian was in a great mood. He was laughing, giggling and babbling. I encourage him to vocalize "I want" when he wants something - he says "Ah waa" , but yesterday he was asking for banana and was consistently saying two more syllabus, and it sounded like: "Ah waa waawaa" - that is much closer to "I want banana".

He often does something amazing couple of times, and then never ever does it again, but I hope that he will stick to it.

I have not got to know his personality well since he is often quiet and silent in between his meltdowns, just giving out a bright smile from time to time. Now there are moments when I can see a subtle and whimsical boy emerging. He very much enjoys and is amused by the world he lives in. I can see it in the way he looks and reacts to his surroundings. I can not really pinpoint it, I experience it more as a feeling. He comes and gives hugs, presses his face against mine. He comes to the kitchen, busy stimming, but when I join him on the floor he welcomes me with a smile. It is hard to engage him, because he will not spontaneously take turns or imitate in any way, and yet I know that somehow he is registering what is happening around him, and taking it all in.