Thinking Positive

I am trying to think about something pleasant today while I am washing dishes and doing laundry. But whatever I think about is depressing. The upcoming Christmas I will spend far away from my mother, I am in substantial debt I go myself into by loosing the track of my money while I lived spending just on necessities, and my fight for Sebastian's future - well that is not going well is it?

Things could be much better than they are. I want to change a lot about our life. I want health and joy and laughter and family and happiness and warmth all around us and friends and healthy house, and great view from our windows. There - here we have some positive thinking.