Thursday, January 22, 2009

I am not a blogger

I find that with age my sense of self-importance diminishes as quickly as my good looks. Experience tells me that a lot of my decisions, although made to the best of my abilities at the time, were not good decisions at all. Also, my feelings that seemed to be so overwhelming, powerful and important at the time, are gone with the wind, and all but forgotten. I am not ashamed of anything I have done but I have many regrets. I would like to be able to do it all over again. I know I was mistaken so many times, that sharing and posting it out there for the world to see what I am going through, what I am thinking, and what new revelation comes my way seems to be a foolish and potentially very embarrassing exercise. And yet I think it is the way to go now. I am against the wall. It is not only about me anymore, and do not know what else to do.

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